memory

发现有好多个月没有来这里..很陌生

其实很少回头去看自己的文字...

于是难得现在翻看.,,竟觉得无比惶恐

这些..真是我写的?

呵呵...

我只想要自然和坦诚
想要一个正常的朋友关系

不过你的女友我竟然认识而且一直很欣赏..
真是很神奇

忽然之间豁然开朗
只希望你们彼此都深爱对方
开心就好

于我而言
其实很多事情也都无所谓
只是希望身边的人可以快乐..

忽然想到。。

如果看到你有了女友。。

我将以何种心态面对。。

是坦然？是酸楚？

你说“在我没有放下你以前。。我不会。。也不需要。。”


。。。

只是。。。

你真的。。还未放下我么？

最近流行好友买卖的游戏。。。
最初想买你的时候被瑞瑞抢占先机。。
后来想让他低价转卖给我没想到你自己赎了身。。

于是很顺利的买到你。。

宠物换来换去买来卖去。。
无论我买了谁都常常会被人买走。。
只有你一直在这里。。

一开始我并未多想。。
后来发现原来你删去了这个应用程序。。
于是没有人可以买你。。
而你仍然属于我。。
只要你愿意。。
便如你的头像。。永远在这里安睡。。

说了再见是否就能不再想念
说了抱歉是否就能理解一切
眼泪代替你亲吻我的脸
我的世界忽然漫天白雪
拇指之间还残留你的昨天
一片一片怎么听见完全
七月七日晴
忽然下起了大雪
不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉
我站在地球边眼睁睁看着雪
覆盖你来的那条街
七月七日晴
黑夜忽然变白天
我失去知觉看着相爱的极限
我望着地平线天空无际无边
听不见你道别
拇指之间还残留你的昨天
一片一片怎么听见完全
七月七日晴
忽然下起了大雪
不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉
我站在地球边眼睁睁看着雪
覆盖你来的那条街
七月七日晴
黑夜忽然变白天
我失去知觉看着相爱的极限
我望着地平线天空无际无边
听不见你道别
七月七日晴
忽然下起了大雪
不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉
我站在地球边眼睁睁看着雪
覆盖你来的那条街
七月七日晴
我失去知觉
天空无际无边

今晚有电话哦。。
开心的。。。

恩。。。其实泡面营养不好。。

姑姑嘎嘎，，，
就不让你挂电话

我越来越不知道你在想什么

看不到你听不到你抓不到你

你会掐掉电话短信自然不回

任何地方到找不到你的痕迹

直到你说“若是这一切与我无关你以为我会这般？”

你说你知道我已放弃而你并没有放弃

而我真的已经不知该从何而知你并未放弃

你说是你令我放弃

我想你说的很对，你令我希望失望倒也不曾真的绝望

其实我一直想问你，你是否已不再爱我。

或者，这样的感情已经不能称之为“爱”

我只是希望你幸福，你对我来说仍然独一无二十分重要

我只是不想你再错过，若还有属于你的幸福。

 

为什么我们就是不可以像朋友一样促膝长谈？！

 

Maybe I Won't Look Back

I woke up from dreaming
I returned a call from a friend of mine, she sounded really lonely
But I had somewhere to be
I said I'll call you later
'Cause I really need to go, I can't be late, she'll be okay, this is important
Then I forgot completely

[Bridge:]
You can be who you choose to be
But whether you do, or whether you don't
Depends on your priority
And I know that it's not easy

[Chorus:]
I'm looking for the peace to find some sleep tonight
'Cause I'm
Not very proud of the way I have lived today
But if I choose to
Follow Him along the way
Then maybe I won't look back
Feel like time is gonna pass me by
Then maybe I won't look back

[Bridge 2:]
On those days I could of said something
In those times when help was needed I was busy
I was within the words to see the moment is good
In some way I could have been something
I thought I was done with a simple smile, but I was selfish
But if I change my heart today, tomorrow it may be okay
And maybe I won't look back

I woke up from a nightmare
Where I was talking down this street, invisible and no one else could see me
All my chances were gone
I can't get your attention
I've had many things to say, but never tried, afraid you wouldn't listen
Should of done it all differently

[Bridge]
You can be who you choose to be
But whether you do, or whether you don't
Depends on your priority
Lord help me to choose wisely

[Chorus]
I'm looking for the peace to find some sleep tonight
'Cause I'm
Not very proud of the way I have lived today
But if I choose to
Follow Him along the way
Then maybe I won't look back
Feel like time is gonna pass me by
Then maybe I won't look back

[Bridge 2]
On those days I could of said something
In those times when help was needed I was busy
I was within the words to see the moment is good
In some way I could have been something
I thought I was done with a simple smile, but I was selfish
But if I change my heart today, tomorrow it may be okay
And maybe I won't look back

[Rap:]
I can't hold back, I can't be shy
This is my big chance to be living the life, I gotta
Stand up strong and take the ride
Throw all those useless excuses aside
So much to do, I got a lot to say
I don't always understand but I'll gonna follow anyway
'Cause there is a bigger plan, a destiny
I can't waste this precious time

[Chorus]
I'm looking for the peace to find some sleep tonight
'Cause I'm
Not very proud of the way I have lived today
But if I choose to
Follow Him along the way
Then maybe I won't look back
Feel like time is gonna pass me by
Then maybe I won't look back

[Bridge 2]
On those days I could of said something
In those times when help was needed I was busy
I was within the words to see the moment is good
In some way I could have been something
I thought I was done with a simple smile, but I was selfish
But if I change my heart today, tomorrow it may be okay
And maybe I won't look back

Then maybe I won't look back [x2]

再也不会为了想他而想他。
　　你已经不能确定现在的他是否和你还有什么关系，无论你是否知道他的消息。
　　
　　你不知道是他真的发生了变化，还是以前你误读了他。
　　总之，这个他与你记忆中的他不是同一个人。
　　这么久都没来结束你对他无望思念的人，怎么会是那个曾经给你带来幸福与欢喜的人呢？必然不是的。
　　
　　无论你想起那个记忆中的他时，是心痛还是甜蜜，这一切都与现在的他无关。
　　
　　这样的思念只针对从前，不针对未来，不含任何期待。
　　
　　那是一种残酷的遥远的美，与他无关的。





这一切，，恰如我之于你

明明有机会见你。。
放弃。。
拒绝。。

怯弱的。。
不知怎样去面对你。。

于是和他去见你姐。。
她一直都说我太过痴迷于你。。
而你一定不知我竟如此迷恋你的存在。。

我爱你。。
我从不怀疑。。。
而我不能与你一起。。
因了这爱。。
燃烧我自己。。
会毁了我。。
亦会毁了你。。

所以。。我选择疏离。。
莫相见。。
莫相忘。。

果然。。。
高考之后再见。。

是镜子的另一端。。
是彼岸。。
是本元的抽离。。

袋鼠说我一定可以离开你。。
你说我不会回来。。

我不知道怎么了。。
好像真的陷入了思维定式。。
没法和爱的人在一起。。
恩。。

其实未见。。。

不过这样也挺好。。。

虽然你说不喜电话